Oh, Utah

So, the sister that I visited in Utah, just one month ago, well, she up and moved from Provo, UT to New York City!! These are exciting times for her and her family as they start this new adventure but I have to say that I'm a little sad that she's no longer just a drive away from me (that didn't last long did it? considering we just moved from TX.....) Not to mention she is now three hours ahead of me so I can no longer text her late at night ;(

Today I was just thinking about how I had no idea a month ago when I was visiting Utah that it would probably be a really really long time until I visited again since I no longer have immediate family living there! Good thing I spent a total of three weeks there and I'd say we lived it up. Cole got to play his little heart out and us sisters got to shop (and eat!!) our little hearts out too. :)

I just wanted to give a big shout out to Emma who deserves some kind of reward for packing up her house by herself with a newborn with one week's notice. Seriously. I told her she needs to be interviewed by the news or something haha ;)

I thought I'd post these pictures for nostalgia's sake. Our one and only trip to Utah while we lived close to each other was a blast and I'll always have fond memories of it.

I looked out the window...

Last night as I put him to bed he told me:
"You have pretty eyes, mommy."
And
"I love your smile."

Yesterday he had is first ever dentist appointment! Back when we were in Utah, he somehow busted his mouth while he was playing. We still don't really know what happened but he said it was "the door" and so we're guessing that he slammed into the door or something because is was pretty bad! His left front tooth and the two teeth to the left of it got smashed in and they were totally wobbly for a while there :( I really thought that he was going to have to get it pulled. Sure enough, about a month after it happened his left front tooth started turning grey. So we took him in to get it checked out and luckily the doc said that there's nothing to be done other than wait for it to fall out! I was a little sad that he wouldn't have his perfect little teeth and his perfect little smile, but it's funny how when it's your kid you just love them exactly the way they are. His gray tooth doesn't seem imperfect to me, it's just him as if he was always supposed to be this way.

What Cole doesn't realize is that his eyes are much much prettier than mine. And I dare say I love his smile more than he loves mine, gray tooth and all ♥

BONE EYES!

Cole's new thing is "telling stories." He's constantly asking us to tell him a story and before we've even finished telling our story, he's asking us to tell another one! The other night I was putting him to bed and out of no where he started telling me this story. Most the time I can catch on to what he's talking about but this story was so random to me; I had no idea what he was talking about! Which is why I started taking this little video. To me it's hilarious! I'm not sure if anyone else will think it's as funny though ;)

oh, and sorry for the low quality. It's a good thing I even had my phone on me. :)

This Mother's Day

I hope my boys grow up knowing just how much I love them. And that there is nothing else in this entire world I would rather be doing than raising them along with their dad. God knew what he was doing when he put us into families because it is so much more fulfilling than I ever thought it would be.

This Mother's Day was pretty fun because it was the first time that Cole got to sing me a little song along with all the other primary kids in Sacrament meeting. It was pretty cute, even if Cole had no clue what was going on and didn't sing a single word ;) What I loved most was the little gift that he made for me in primary. It was a little cutout clay heart made into a keychain that has is little finger print on it and his name etched into it. Cole was sooo excited to give it to me and for that reason I absolutely love. It's definitely not about what you get but it's seeing your kids get so excited about it-- that's the real gift they're giving!

I also wanted to tell my mom how much I love her! I remember being pretty insecure when I was younger, but I always knew that my mom (and my dad too) loved me just the way I was. They loved me for me and when you're an insecure teenager, that makes all the difference. I knew that they loved me because they told me but more than that, they showed me with their actions and their example every single day. I hope I can be that same kind of mom to my kids that my mom has been to me. I love you mom! Happy Mother's Day!

Oh, and a big shout out to Steve for making a fancy and delicious Sunday dinner and for getting me a whole hour massage at a place somewhere downtown!!!!!! I am beyond excited. Can't wait to redeem it. :)

This is what it's all about.

The other day when Cole woke up from his nap, he walked out of his room and started hanging all over me...which is what he's been doing a lot lately. He wakes up a little cranky and doesn't want to talk. I tried asking him how his nap was but he was just too grumpy to talk to me so he sulked away. Steve and I had been in the middle of a conversation and so we picked it back up once he left the room. A few minutes later I went to check on Logan who was playing/rolling around on the living room floor. That's when I saw Cole lying next to Logan just holding his hand and looking at him and kissing him. And Logan was looking back at him. They both weren't making any noise, they just looked at each other, just happy to be in each others' presence. Steve and I stood in the doorway and watched them and I thought to myself This is what it's all about. Seeing how much my boys love each other is such a wonderful feeling! And I loved that Steve and I could witness it together. I just felt so happy.

For a short moment all four of us were thinking about the same thing at the exact same time: how much we love each other. And that's why I hope I never forget it ♥

My all-time favorite age.

My sweet Logan is five months old already! I've said it before and I'll say it again: this age, five months old, is just pure heaven. Of course I love my babies at all ages, but there's something so care-free and sweet about this age. I still only nurse him; I love not having to worry about feeding him baby food just yet. He will just sit in my arms and be completely content. There's never a moment of frustration or boredom because everything's so new to him, he's just fascinated by everything! I remember feeling exactly this way when Cole was five months old. The biggest difference between the two is that Logan can already roll over like a champ! He rolls everywhere! And he's practically sitting up already! And he kind of scoots already! It's so crazy to me. He's growing up so quickly but I still feel like I just had him. It's going on half a year now though and that just completely blows my mind.

Here are just a few things that I absolutely love about my five month old boy:

+He genuinely loves little baby toys!! It's the cutest thing ever to me. I love the way his face lights up when I hand him a toy to play with! I've already bought way more toys for Logan that I ever did for Cole at this age, just because he loves them so much. It's completely adorable :) I don't remember Cole liking toys that much! Especially not this young!

+I love love the way he reaches up to play with my hair when he's nursing. Without even looking his little hand reaches up to tug on my hair. And I just want to kiss his little hands all day long. It is the sweetest thing; I cherish it so much.

+Whenever he cries in his sleep I always go to put his pacifier back in to calm him down. The minute I walk in the room and say "shhhhhh" he immediately quiets down because just the sound of my voice soothes him ♥ And when I stick his paci back in, he always grabs hold of my hand with his two little hands and clutches on to me for dear life as if to say don't leave me!! And it always breaks my heart a little bit when I have to pry his little fingers off of me so that I can get stuff done while he's napping.

+Here's something kind of silly, but I absolutely love his name: Logan. It just fits him so perfectly, I've always thought so since the minute I saw him. I'm actually surprised that we haven't come up with any kind of nickname for him...we always just call him Logan and I love it so much. The reason why I initially liked the name when Steve and I were first talking about names was because it starts with the letter "L" which is my favorite letter, since, you know, my name starts with the letter "L" too ;) And the name Logan itself kind of sounds very similar to Lauren! That might just seem silly, but whenever I pictured Logan inside of me while I was pregnant, I always pictured him with blonde hair. I somehow just knew that he was going to be a little blondie and since I'm technically a blondie too, it only seemed fitting that both us blondies have similar names. Plus, I feel like he looks so much like me. It just fits and I love it and I love looking into his beautiful face and seeing me in him :)

He just makes me so incredibly happy, I thank God for him every single day. I love you sweet baby boy! Happy five months!

I'm such a lucky mama♥

Seriously, I always tell people that I LOVE this age.

+He's all smiles
+He's not mobile so he can't get away from me just yet :)
+I'm his favorite person in the whole world right now ;)
+And he laughs at every single one of my jokes!

I love this boy. I'm so lucky to have my little Logan♥

ps, thanks Lissie for taking these pictures while we were in Utah :)

*Preschool*

Aunt Emma got Cole that adorable backpack and when we were staying with them, he got to put it to good use and go to preschool with Annabelle three times! He absolutely LOVED it! Annabelle has the cutest little preschool class and the best teacher ever. (She was so sweet to let Cole join for those three weeks :) She always had the cutest activities and snacks and Cole seems to have remembered everything he learned. It made me want to start my own little preschool here in Washington. It would be a good way for me to actually teach Cole all the things he should probably learn before he goes to kindergarden!

We'll see if it that ever happens.... ;)